You need to get out there like Ruth said, I sure as hell didn't met any women sitting at home hoping they'd come knock on my door.All those guys who dated in college and high school had to start somewhere.And why are you so convinced no guy has ever been attracted to you?How can you possibly know the thoughts of every guy who has ever laid eyes on you? The truth is, there’s no conceivable way you could have any idea how many men have been attracted to you over the years, and the fact that you think you , leads me to believe you suffer from some sort of extreme “relationship dysmorphic disorder,” a term I totally made up that’s inspired by the definition of “body dysmorphic disorder.” Body dysmorphic disorder is a “psychological disorder in which the affected person is excessively concerned about and preoccupied by a perceived defect in his or her body image.” It’s commonly understood as the disorder in which a person sees something in the mirror that greatly differs from what others see when looking at him or her (imagine a skinny person seeing a fat person in the mirror). I’d also enlist a very good friend or two to be brutally honest with you about how she perceives your search for love.
Also, there's nothing you can do about the past now, so dwelling on it isn't going to help.
Real life is very different from TV and other media portrayals. It's not gonna happen if you're on the computer all the time, though.
Yeah, but you see, going back to thing about me being emotionally immature, if I joined some activity group and there was a single girl I thought I had a chance with (The probability of this is low. Had first G/F age 25, 2nd age 29, both long-term and they both wanted to marry me very much, but I didn't feel it was right.
You don't see a lot of decently attractive single girls.), I would get way too excited and get my hopes up and be so disappointed when I got rejected. Anyway, all I can say, the emotional and physical stuff, holding hands, sex, making out, flirting, etc, it just comes naturally, we are animals after all.
If you like who you are and carry yourself that way, you should have no problems, esp since I've seen your pictures.